Kundalini Awakening and 64 Emotions

 Kundalini Awakening and 64 Emotions

Kedi: “I remember that I was boxing to experience some of the 64 emotions, but I can’t recall why I was trying to experience those 64 emotions.”
Ganesh: “You wanted to experience the 64 emotions to awaken the Kundalini energy.”

Kedi: “Do I need to experience all 64 emotions to awaken Kundalini? Can’t I experience Kundalini energy directly?”
Ganesh: “You’re currently 28 years old. To experience the age of 82, you have to pass through all the ages between 28 and 82. Similarly, to experience Kundalini energy, experiencing all 64 emotions is also necessary.”

Kedi: “I had heard that Kundalini energy can be awakened through meditation practice.”
Ganesh: “Kundalini is never awakened through meditation practice—never.”

Kedi: “Then what happens through meditation practice?”
Ganesh: “Through meditation, a person can stabilise their restless mind, engage in self-reflection, gain awareness of their existence, and achieve peace of mind. But they cannot awaken Kundalini.”

Kedi: “How do you do meditation practice?”
Ganesh: “When you stop knowing external events and start trying to know the activities happening inside the body and inside the mind—that effort is called meditation practice.”

Kedi: “Can I do meditation practice?”
Ganesh: “You’re able to talk to me right now because you’re in the state of meditation practice. Our conversation is a form of meditation practice called self-reflection.”

Kedi: “Since when have I been doing meditation practice?”
Ganesh: “Since you were 11 years old.”

Kedi: “Is self-reflection necessary for everyone?”
Ganesh: “No. Some people are so fortunate that they have guides in their lives; they don’t need to do self-reflection. For those who have no support for guidance, self-reflection is essential.”

Kedi: “Am I fortunate?”
Ganesh: “You are both conversely fortunate and conversely unfortunate.”

Kedi: “What does ‘conversely fortunate’ mean?”
Ganesh: “If the journey fails but the destination succeeds, that’s fortunate. If the journey succeeds but the destination fails, that’s conversely fortunate.”

Kedi: “I didn’t understand anything.”
Ganesh: “You went from home to a hotel to eat biryani. After reaching the hotel, you realised you didn’t have money to pay for the biryani, so you ended up eating vada pav from a stall right outside the hotel.

Your journey from home to the hotel was successful, but the destination, eating biryani, failed. This is called inverse fortune.

Not having money for biryani is your misfortune, but being able to enjoy vada pav and not feeling sad about missing the biryani—this is called conversely misfortune.”

Kedi: “I understand that I’m conversely fortunate. I choose the destination for the journey, but the journey chooses my destination.”
Ganesh: “Your goal was to become a wrestler, but the journey made you a boxer. Next time your goal fails, make the journey itself your goal.”

Kedi: “What is conversely unfortunate?”
Ganesh: “One who becomes successful despite failure, whose misfortune doesn’t make them feel unfortunate—that’s conversely unfortunate.”

Kedi: “How am I conversely unfortunate?”
Ganesh: “You have 5,000 rupees to put petrol in the bike but not 1,000 rupees to stay one night in a hotel. You have money in your pocket, yet you’re sleeping at a petrol pump—it’s unfortunate, but you didn’t feel the misfortune. While going to Delhi by bike, you had clean clothes in your bag yet travelled in dusty clothes—unfortunate, but you didn’t feel it. Understand conversely unfortunate now?”

Kedi: “I understand. Is there any remedy for this?”
Ganesh: “Since you’re conversely unfortunate, your misfortune doesn’t bother you—that’s a good thing. No need for a remedy. The only need is to continuously remember your original goal.”

Kedi: “Whether I become a wrestler or a boxer, my original goal was Kundalini awakening. I want to know about my original goal.”
Ganesh: “What do you want to know?”

Kedi: “Why do I need to experience all 64 emotions for Kundalini awakening?”
Ganesh: “The human body has seven energy chakras, and the eighth energy chakra is outside the body in the aura around the head. Different emotions arise from each chakra. Kundalini energy resides in the Muladhara chakra. When all emotions are produced in sufficient quantity from all the energy chakras, only then does a hole form in the centre of each chakra. When holes form in the centres of all chakras, the energy from the Brahma chakra in the human aura passes through all seven chakras and falls on the Kundalini energy in the Muladhara chakra, lifting it up and establishing it in the Brahma chakra. That’s when Kundalini awakens. Then the person realises that they are Narada themselves. The person sheds society’s false beliefs and attains their original nature.”

Kedi: “I didn’t understand anything, but whatever I heard, just hearing it scares me. My mind is small; explain one thing at a time. I can’t even righteously listen to so much information at once.”
Ganesh: “In the human body, there are seven energy chakras, and outside the body in the aura, there is one energy chakra.”

Kedi: “Where are the energy chakras located in the body?”
Ganesh: “The energy chakras in humans are in the brain and the spine—two in the brain and five in the spine.”

Kedi: “Where is the first energy chakra located?”
Ganesh: “The first is the Muladhara chakra, located at the lowest point of the spine. The entire life of a human is based on this, so it is called the root, Muladhara, chakra.”

Kedi: “What emotion arises in the Muladhara?”
Ganesh: “In Muladhara, the four emotions—lust, anger, greed, and addiction—arise. Whenever these emotions arise, the human aura turns red.”

Kedi: “Which of these emotions have I experienced?”
Ganesh: “You have experienced all four of these emotions.”

Kedi: “Have I also experienced sex?”
Ganesh: “Yes, but don’t recall it right now, or else you’ll stray from your main topic.”

Kedi: “Okay. Have I also experienced anger?”
Ganesh: “Yes. In childhood, when anger came, you would grab the other person’s neck. Now, when anger comes, you cut off contact because you’re afraid of grabbing someone’s neck and ending up in lockup.”

Kedi: “Have I also experienced greed?”
Ganesh: “Yes. In childhood, to get other children’s share of eggs and milk, you would greedily hover around them.”

Kedi: “Have I also experienced addiction?”
Ganesh: “For the past ten years, every day between seven and eight in the evening, you go to eat vada pav. You have an addiction to vada pav.”

Kedi: “Do I have any other addiction?”
Ganesh: “To develop an addiction, money is needed. You have just enough money to buy only one vada pav a day.”

Kedi: “Since I have experienced all four emotions, has my Muladhara chakra become stable?”
Ganesh: “It hasn’t become stable, but the energy of the Muladhara chakra is flowing upward.”

Kedi: “What does that mean?”
Ganesh: “Until all four emotions of the Muladhara chakra are sufficiently experienced, its energy flows downward. After sufficient experience of all emotions, it then flows upward.”

Kedi: “What happens when the Muladhara energy flows upward?”
Ganesh: “Above Muladhara is the Svadhisthana chakra, which it affects.”

Kedi: “What emotions arise in the Svadhisthana chakra?”
Ganesh: “Ego, surrender, doubt, worry, fear, and belief—these six emotions arise in Svadhisthana. When these six emotions arise, the human aura turns orange.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced ego?”
Ganesh: “Yes. In school, when you scored two or three extra marks in an exam, you would feel ego. But when you realised you didn’t even have two rupees in your pocket for peanut chikki, your ego would shatter in that very moment.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced surrender?”
Ganesh: “You perform every mischief with complete surrender; that’s why your mischiefs succeed, but you yourself do not succeed.”

Kedi: “Why don’t I succeed?”
Ganesh: “You need to surrender toward the destination. You are surrendered to the journey. Whatever you have surrendered to, that’s what you will get.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced doubt?”
Ganesh: “Yes. Whenever someone praises you even slightly, you doubt it—maybe the person praising you will trick you into climbing a gram tree and then take your bicycle from below. But when you realise you don’t even have a bicycle, your doubt ends.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced worry?”
Ganesh: “You have no worry about success or failure—that worries me. You did worry in a few job interviews to get the job, but you quit the same job after two or three months just because you got bored doing the same work repeatedly.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced fear?”
Ganesh: “Ask on which day you haven’t experienced fear. Whatever you’re afraid of, you want to try doing it to see if the fear increases or decreases.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced belief?”
Ganesh: “Because of your habit of forgetting, sometimes you forget to use common sense, and you even place belief in people whom no one should trust.”

Kedi: “I have experienced all six emotions. Has my Svadhisthana chakra become stable?”
Ganesh: “Experiencing all emotions doesn’t make the chakra stable; rather, it opens it.”

Kedi: “What does that mean?”
Ganesh: “An energy chakra is like a lotus flower. Each energy chakra has a different number of petals. For example, Svadhisthana has six petals, from which six different emotions arise. Each petal of the energy chakra is attached to its centre. When sufficient experience related to that petal is gained, the petal keeps growing. When the petal is fully developed, it separates from the centre and begins to bloom. When all the petals of a chakra separate from the centre and start blooming, understand that the energy chakra has opened.”

Kedi: “Has my Svadhisthana chakra opened?”
Ganesh: “You have experienced all the emotions arising in Svadhisthana, but not sufficiently, so the Svadhisthana chakra has not opened yet. You need a little more experience.”

Kedi: “In which direction does the energy of Svadhisthana flow?”
Ganesh: “The energy of Svadhisthana only flows around itself. It does not flow up or down.”

Kedi: “What happens when it flows around itself?”
Ganesh: “The emotions arising from the Svadhisthana chakra make a person revolve around themselves. With ego, considering oneself great; with doubt, considering oneself right; with fear, trying to save oneself.”

Kedi: “Which chakra is above Svadhisthana?”
Ganesh: “Manipura chakra. In it, emotions like love, jealousy, attraction, hatred, affection, enmity, attachment, renunciation, compassion, and mercy—ten emotions—arise. Due to these emotions, the human aura turns yellow.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced love?”
Ganesh: “Yes. You’re Mama’s boy. You love your mother a lot.”

Kedi: “Besides my mother, have I loved any girl?”
Ganesh: “No.”

Kedi: “Why?”
Ganesh: “There’s money to buy groceries at home, but no money to eat at a hotel. Why would any girl fall in love with you? Ask further.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced jealousy?”
Ganesh: “Whenever someone eats anything in front of you, you feel jealous—why is he eating this, why am I not getting to eat it? When you realise the person is eating something you wouldn’t eat even if it were free, your jealousy ends.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced attraction?”
Ganesh: “Sarika, Yogita, Sucheta, Pinky—it’s a very long list. If any girl talks to you with a smile or appears smiling, you immediately feel attraction.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced hatred?”
Ganesh: “When someone abuses or uses foul language, you feel hatred toward them.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced affection?”
Ganesh: “When someone talks about Sanatan Dharma or works to propagate religion, you feel affection toward them.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced resentment?”
Ganesh: “Toward leftists and irreligious people who oppose Sanatan Dharma and support anti-national terrorists, you feel resentment.”

Kedi: “But I party with leftists and irreligious people. All my relatives and some of my clients are leftists and irreligious people. I eat from the same plate as them. How can I hold hatred?”

Ganesh: “You’re the kind of guy who, for a free party, can even sit in the lap of leftists and irreligious people, and for free food, you can dance and entertain them too. But when those same leftists and irreligious people oppose Sanatan Dharma, you can also hold resentment toward them.”

Kedi: “Is it wrong to party with leftists and irreligious people while at the same time holding resentment toward them?”

Ganesh: “Yes, for a normal person, it is wrong, because a normal person doesn’t party with someone they resent. Holding resentment toward someone while partying with them is wrong. But for you, it isn’t wrong, because when you’re partying and having fun, you don’t see them as leftists or irreligious people—you see them as pleasure-loving people like yourself. However, it would be wrong for you to become irreligious or promote irreligion just to be included in an irreligious person’s party.”

Kedi: “My priority is the nation and religion. For those who harm them, there can be no one more ungrateful than me. Party and food on one side, nation and religion on the other—no compromise.”

Ganesh: “That’s exactly what doesn’t let you become a normal person.”

 

Kedi: “Have I experienced attachment?”
Ganesh: “You have four or five customers who treat you like a friend; toward them, you feel attachment.”

Kedi: “What is the difference between affection and attachment?”
Ganesh: “The one we haven’t met personally in life, yet still wish for their success—that is called affection. The one we meet personally in life, and by meeting them repeatedly, wish for their success—that is called attachment.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced renunciation?”
Ganesh: “You dream of achieving something in life and struggle for it, but when you realise you cannot obtain it, you immediately renounce it. What you feel when changing your goal—that is renunciation.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced compassion?”
Ganesh: “Yes. Once on the road, someone had an accident; no one was helping. You took him to the hospital and helped that unknown person. The desire to help that person was compassion.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced mercy?”
Ganesh: “Yes. In school, when four or five boys were harassing one boy, you wanted to help him but couldn’t. You alone couldn’t fight those boys, so helplessly you stood there watching the spectacle. At that time, you were experiencing mercy.”

Kedi: “What is the difference between compassion and mercy?”
Ganesh: “Those who are powerful show compassion toward others and pull them out of trouble. Those who are weak show mercy toward others—they feel sad seeing others in trouble but do not help them.”

Kedi: “Where does the energy of the Manipura chakra flow?”
Ganesh: “It flows downward. Because the Svadhisthana chakra is below it, the energy of the Manipura chakra activates the Svadhisthana chakra.”

Kedi: “What happens from that?”
Ganesh: “The emotions of the Manipura chakra activate the emotions of the Svadhisthana chakra. For example, if love arises in the Manipura chakra, doubt or fear also arises simultaneously in the Svadhisthana chakra. One emotion activates another.”

Kedi: “Which chakra is above the Manipura?”
Ganesh: “The Anahata chakra. In the Anahata chakra, twelve emotions arise: happiness, sorrow, joy, sadness, laughter, pain, delight, torment, enthusiasm, despair, hope, and hopelessness. Due to these emotions, a person’s aura becomes green.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced pleasure?”
Ganesh: “Every evening at seven o’clock, you go to eat vada pav. You go to enjoy the pleasure of its spicy taste.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced sorrow?”
Ganesh: “Your clients invite you to a party, you get ready, and then they call to say the party is cancelled. That’s when you experience sorrow.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced joy?”
Ganesh: “When Mom brings snacks for you from the market, you feel joy.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced sadness?”
Ganesh: “When Mom comes back from the market without bringing snacks for you, you become sad.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced laughter?”
Ganesh: “Your childish antics make Mom laugh a lot. I can’t hold back my laughter either. Sometimes you even laugh at your own mistakes.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced pain?”
Ganesh: “You create trouble to experience pain, forget it after receiving the pain, and then do something new to get fresh pain. You live just to receive pain.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced delight?”
Ganesh: “When you see Mom, you feel delighted. Others need decorations to feel delighted—you only need Mom.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced torment?”
Ganesh: “When you were ten years old, you faked an illness. To diagnose it, the hospital doctor drew bone marrow from your spine. You suffered continuous torment for three months. To escape that torment, you even wished for death.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced enthusiasm?”
Ganesh: “This morning you were bouncing around with enthusiasm. The boxing fight was at five PM, yet from five AM you were jumping here and there in excitement. Your eagerness wouldn’t let you sit still for even a moment.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced despair?”
Ganesh: “You’ve worked in call centres, banks, malls, and sales and marketing—various companies—and become so knowledgeable yet confused that now you don’t want to work for any company again. You feel despair regarding jobs.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced hope?”
Ganesh: “When you visit relatives, you hope they’ll give you some special food that you don’t get at home.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced hopelessness?”
Ganesh: “When you hope for special food at a relative’s house but don’t get it, you experience hopelessness.”

Kedi: “I have experienced all the emotions of the Anahata chakra. Does that mean my Anahata chakra has opened?”
Ganesh: “No. You haven’t yet received sufficient pleasure. Once you receive enough pleasure, perhaps then your Anahata chakra will open.”

Kedi: “In which direction does the energy of the Anahata chakra flow?”
Ganesh: “The energy of the Anahata chakra flows both upward and downward. Therefore, emotions arising in the Anahata chakra affect both the Manipura chakra and the Vishuddha chakra.”

Kedi: “How many emotions arise in the Vishuddha chakra?”
Ganesh: “In the Vishuddha chakra, sixteen emotions arise: peace, unrest, restlessness, anxiety, patience, impatience, masochism, sadism, shock, detachment, helplessness, shame, laziness, expectation, embarrassment, and grief. Due to these emotions, a person’s aura becomes sky blue.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced peace?”
Ganesh: “When you go on a long bike ride and stop somewhere to let the engine cool, you have nothing to do. That’s when you experience peace.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced unrest?”
Ganesh: “When a new idea for mischief comes to your mind, you become restless and rush off to do it without research or preparation.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced restlessness?”
Ganesh: “Whenever you newly joined a company, you stayed restless, wanting to do something new all the time.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced anxiety?”
Ganesh: “When you were in sales, you remained anxious to complete your target ahead of time.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced patience?”
Ganesh: “When you felt that even with little effort your work got done on time, you experienced patience.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced impatience?”
Ganesh: “In school and college, you were impatient to know exam results as quickly as possible.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced masochism?”
Ganesh: “While riding the bike in heavy rain, the raindrops caused you pain, yet you were enjoying that pain. That was masochism.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced sadism?”
Ganesh: “When you see police or army breaking the limbs of leftists, traitors, or unrighteous people, you feel relief. Seeing the blood of traitors and unrighteous people gives you great pleasure. That’s when you experience sadism.”

Kedi: “Do I really enjoy seeing someone’s pain?”
Ganesh: “It’s not just enjoyment—you also wish to personally inflict pain and torment on those traitors and unrighteous people with your own hands.”

Kedi: “Impossible.”
Ganesh: “If you don’t believe me, continuing this conversation is pointless.”

Kedi: “I believe you. I just can’t believe myself.”
Ganesh: “I also can’t believe how, knowing everything, you still manage to act ignorant—when you don’t even know how to pretend.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced shock?”
Ganesh: “Yes. At night, when a cat suddenly jumps on you, you become shocked.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced detachment?”
Ganesh: “You are such a Mama’s boy that you won’t be able to attain detachment. A sadhu first seeks detachment to awaken Kundalini power. You want Kundalini power but don’t want detachment. You haven’t attained detachment yet, so you cannot awaken Kundalini power.”

Kedi: “Can Kundalini not awaken without detachment?”
Ganesh: “Without detachment, liberation, moksha, is possible, but Kundalini cannot awaken.”

Kedi: “How can liberation be attained without detachment?”
Ganesh: “To attain liberation, experiencing all sixty-four emotions is not necessary. Sufficient experience of only eight emotions is required.”

Kedi: “Which emotions are necessary for liberation?”
Ganesh: “Sufficient experience of desire, surrender, love, happiness, peace, awareness, bliss, and liberation. These eight emotions grant moksha.”

Kedi: “If I don’t need detachment, can I still attain liberation?”
Ganesh: “Yes, you can attain liberation. But your original goal was to obtain Kundalini power. Don’t you want Kundalini power anymore?”

Kedi: “I want Kundalini power, but I don’t want detachment.”
Ganesh: “Why don’t you want detachment?”

Kedi: “I haven’t married yet. I want to experience both the pampering and teasing from a wife.”
Ganesh: “With Mom around, you don’t want detachment. Once you have a wife, you won’t even want to hear the word ‘detachment.’”

Kedi: “That’s fine. I’ll think about detachment later.”
Ganesh: “Okay, as you wish.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced helplessness?”
Ganesh: “When you lived at your uncle’s house, you felt hungry at eight PM. Mom said she couldn’t serve you food until Uncle ate. Uncle came home at ten PM, so you ate at ten. The suffering from hunger between eight and ten PM—that was your helplessness.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced shame?”
Ganesh: “When you lived in the orphanage, you were eleven years old. You were warned not to swim in the canal. Still, you went with school friends. Your friends took your clothes and left for the orphanage. You were naked, found a large torn underwear buried in the ground, wore it, and walked through the entire village back to the orphanage. That’s when you experienced shame. I’m still laughing thinking about it.”

Kedi: “My condition was terrible then—shame of nudity and fear of beating from the warden. Warden Mangala beat me badly.”
Ganesh: “I think you always create trouble just to get beaten.”

Kedi: “I don’t know. Have I experienced laziness?”
Ganesh: “There are many reasons for your poverty—one of them is laziness. You are very lazy.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced expectation?”
Ganesh: “To expect something from someone, you need a sharp memory, but you don’t even remember from whom you should expect what. So you can’t hold expectations from anyone.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced embarrassment?”
Ganesh: “You used to give massage services to women to study sexuality. You had become a professional therapist. One day Mom found out you were going to women’s homes for massages, and she beat you badly. That’s when you felt embarrassment.”

Kedi: “I don’t want to remember that embarrassment. Have I experienced grief?”
Ganesh: “When you were nineteen, you had a one-sided attraction to Yogita. After she left, you cried for two months remembering her. What you felt then was grief.”

Kedi: “In which direction does the energy of the Vishuddha chakra flow?”
Ganesh: “It flows downward. Because the Anahata chakra is below it, the sixteen emotions generated in the Vishuddha chakra activate the twelve emotions generated in the Anahata chakra.”

Kedi: “Which chakra is above the Vishuddha chakra?”
Ganesh: “Above the Vishuddha chakra is the Ajna chakra. From the Muladhara chakra up to the Vishuddha chakra, the five chakras are located in the human spine, and the remaining two chakras, the Ajna chakra and Sahasrara chakra, are in the human brain.”

Kedi: “What emotions arise in the Ajna chakra?”
Ganesh: “In the Ajna chakra, the two emotions of wisdom and witnessing arise. Due to these two emotions, a person’s aura becomes blue.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced the emotion of wisdom?”
Ganesh: “When you think about committing some mischief and how to do it in a way that gives you pleasure, that very thinking is wisdom.”

Kedi: “I don’t plan mischief. Whatever I do just turns into mischief. Tell me again what wisdom is.”
Ganesh: “When a person applies ingenuity to do any task in an easy and beautiful way and feels joy after finding that ingenuity, that emotion is called wisdom.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced the emotion of witnessing?”
Ganesh: “After eating, you repeatedly go to the kitchen to check if any food is left. You keep looking at the utensils. The desire to observe any object or event and experiencing that desire is the experience of the witnessing emotion.”

Kedi: “Are there only two emotions in the Ajna chakra?”
Ganesh: “Yes. Only two emotions arise in the Ajna chakra, and the energy of the Ajna chakra flows both upward and downward. These two emotions of the Ajna chakra activate a total of thirty emotions—sixteen from the Vishuddha chakra and fourteen from the Sahasrara chakra.”

Kedi: “Which chakra is above the Ajna chakra?”
Ganesh: “Above the Ajna chakra is the Sahasrara chakra, in which fourteen emotions arise: bliss, selfishness, cruelty, forgiveness, remorse, memory, faith, devotion, mesmerisation, entertainment, desire, curiosity, satisfaction, dissatisfaction, intoxication, and wonder. Because of these emotions, a person’s aura becomes violet or purple.”

Kedi: “The list counts 16, but you are saying there are 14 emotions. How?”
Ganesh: “Mesmerization and intoxication—these two are not emotions but states of mind that act like emotions. The remaining 14 are emotions; these two are not.”

Kedi: “I’ve heard that the Sahasrara chakra has a thousand petals, so why only fourteen emotions?”
Ganesh: “Some emotions have energy that can be handled by a single petal, while others have energy that cannot be contained by just one petal. All fourteen emotions associated with the Sahasrara chakra are very intense; therefore, a thousand petals are needed to handle these fourteen emotions.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced bliss?”
Ganesh: “The joy you felt after winning a boxing fight—that was the emotion of bliss.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced selfishness?”
Ganesh: “Whenever Mom brings snacks from the market, you become selfish—you want more than your younger brother.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced cruelty?”
Ganesh: “You have only imagined cruelty. You haven’t truly experienced it.”

Kedi: “Does that mean I’ll have to commit cruelty to awaken Kundalini?”
Ganesh: “Yes. Experiencing cruelty is also necessary for Kundalini awakening.”

Kedi: “With whom should I be cruel? I don’t even have friends or enemies.”
Ganesh: “Cruelty is an emotion. Planning to beat someone up is not cruelty. When someone troubles you excessively and makes living peacefully difficult, then the desire to painfully kill that person to regain peace and calm in life—that would be your emotion of cruelty.”

Kedi: “I don’t want the emotions of detachment and cruelty. Is Kundalini awakening possible without them?”
Ganesh: “Never. Kundalini awakening is not for everyone, nor is it necessary.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced forgiveness?”
Ganesh: “Many times. You don’t have time for revenge, so you forgive out of compulsion, and after a while you forget whom you forgave and why.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced remorse?”
Ganesh: “Once, a regular customer accidentally gave you one five-hundred-rupee note less. He called you immediately, but you were riding the bike and didn’t pick up, then forgot to call back. When you got home and realised the customer had paid five hundred less, you saved his number as ‘500 less’ to remember to take extra next time. Ten days later, when that customer called again for service, you saw ‘500 less,’ directly blamed him, called him guilty, and refused service. Because you had saved the wrong name, you forgot everything about him. When the customer messaged and identified himself, you realised your mistake and felt deep remorse.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced memory?”
Ganesh: “You are experiencing memory right now.”

Kedi: “Right now, I’m introspecting. How is that memory?”
Ganesh: “When someone introspects to search for old memories, the emotion that arises when those memories return is called memory.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced faith?”
Ganesh: “No. You are unable to experience faith.”

Kedi: “Why?”
Ganesh: “You have a lot of curiosity. Those with excessive curiosity cannot experience faith.”

Kedi: “What is the difference between faith and belief?”
Ganesh: “Believing something to be true about things we can see is called belief, while believing something to be true about things we cannot see is called faith.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced devotion?”
Ganesh: “Yes. Since 2016, the emotion of devotion has awakened in you.”

Kedi: “What is the difference between faith and devotion?”
Ganesh: “When you accept someone even without knowing anything about them, that is faith. When you accept someone because you know about them, that is devotion.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced mesmerisation?”
Ganesh: “When you used to circle around Yogita, you felt as if flowers were raining—that was the experience of mesmerisation. And when you drank too much cannabis milk, you experienced hallucinations.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced entertainment?”
Ganesh: “When you watch a good movie and wish it would keep going, never end, that this moment would freeze—that is when you are experiencing entertainment.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced desire?”
Ganesh: “A new desire arises in your mind every hour. You sit with a new desire twelve times a day.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced curiosity?”
Ganesh: “You ask a thousand questions a day. That is curiosity. I have been more troubled by your curiosity than by anything else.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced satisfaction?”
Ganesh: “Every evening at seven o’clock, after eating vada pav, you experience satisfaction.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced dissatisfaction?”
Ganesh: “When the vada pav runs out and you have to eat bhaji pav instead, you don’t enjoy it. Then you complain to Mom, ‘Mom, I ate bhaji pav. I didn’t enjoy it. My fifteen rupees got wasted.’ That is your experience of dissatisfaction.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced intoxication?”
Ganesh: “At the company party, you drank beer and got dizzy. You forgot the difference between the sink and the toilet and were about to urinate in the sink. A waiter stopped you. That was when you were experiencing intoxication.”

Kedi: “Have I experienced wonder?”
Ganesh: “So many twists come in your life that even I get astonished. You want one thing, you get something else. You’re supposed to see a straight three, you see an upside-down six, and then experience wonder.”

Kedi: “In which direction does the energy of the Sahasrara chakra flow?”
Ganesh: “It flows downward and activates only the two emotions of the Ajna chakra.”

Kedi: “Which chakra is above the Sahasrara chakra?”
Ganesh: “Above the Sahasrara chakra is the Brahma chakra. The Brahma chakra is outside the body in the aura. No emotions arise in the Brahma chakra; instead, it is a state of liberation.”

Kedi: “What happens when the Brahma chakra is activated?”
Ganesh: “The person experiences liberation.”

Kedi: “Anyone can experience liberation. Everyone is already free.”
Ganesh: “No, not everyone is free. Some people are bound by natural laws, some by social rules, some by relationships with loved ones, some by their own desires, and you are bound by Mother.”

Kedi: “Out of the sixty-four emotions, how many have I not yet experienced?”
Ganesh: “You have not yet experienced detachment and cruelty—these two emotions. That is why your Vishuddha and Sahasrara chakras are not fully open yet. You have experienced the emotion of pleasure, but not sufficiently, so your Anahata chakra is also not fully open.”

Kedi: “How am I able to experience both positive and negative emotions?”
Ganesh: “Because you chose a paradoxical character.”

Kedi: “What is a paradoxical character?”
Ganesh: “God gave you a form of sixty-four emotions and asked you to tick the emotions you wanted. You thought emotions were like food dishes, so you ticked all of them. A character like that is called a paradox—one who carries both positive and negative things in their pocket.”

Kedi: “Due to my paradoxical character, suppose in the future I experience detachment and cruelty. What will happen?”
Ganesh: “All your seven energy chakras will open fully. Holes will form in those chakras. The energy of the Brahma chakra will pierce through all those holes, descend to the Muladhara chakra, lift the Kundalini energy present there upward through the same path, and establish it in the Brahma chakra.”

Kedi: “So right now, my Kundalini is in the Muladhara, and it will go to the Brahma chakra?”
Ganesh: “Yes. Then you will realise who you truly are and who God is. You will gain nine-dimensional vision. You will see the entire process of God and creation from beginning to end.”

Kedi: “You had said I would attain the realisation of Narada’s form.”
Ganesh: “At that time, you didn’t know about the sixty-four emotions, so I only told you about Narada. Now that you know about the sixty-four emotions and Kundalini, I have told you what you will come to know after attaining the Narada state.”

Kedi: “It seems very difficult for a person to sufficiently experience all sixty-four emotions.”
Ganesh: “It is extremely difficult. For you, it is impossible.”

Kedi: “If it’s impossible for me, then why am I doing it?”
Ganesh: “Your original purpose is to write a scripture of Sanatan Dharma. For that, you needed the real experience of Kundalini energy and all sixty-four emotions. You live through various experiences not to achieve something for yourself, but to write about them.”

Kedi: “Emotions arise in the brain. How can emotions arise in chakras located in the spine?”
Ganesh: “The brain and spine are the same organ. Emotions arise in the energy chakras. Because emotions arise, the brain reacts. Because the brain reacts, the body reacts. Because the body reacts, the other person standing in front reacts. No matter who reacts, the emotion originates in the energy chakra.”

Kedi: “If I experience detachment and cruelty just for a day or two, can my Kundalini still awaken?”
Ganesh: “No. Many people experience all sixty-four emotions a little bit in life, but not sufficiently, so their Kundalini does not awaken.”

Kedi: “If all emotions have been experienced but Kundalini still does not awaken, what actually happens?”
Ganesh: “The person stops living for themselves, becomes a revolutionary, and works to bring revolution in society.”

Note: This content represents one half of a chapter from Kedi Purana, a 64-chapter work authored by Kedi Ganapati.

Kedi Purana is a modern Purana of the present and final Kaliyuga of the current Kalpa.

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